Hais..its only a few hours of happiness before something happen again..in the morning my darling woke up and sms'ed me..but there was this msg when i didnt feel the vibration so i didnt reply for quite a long time..she got angry with me and said im talking to other girls..i actually told myself today no matter what happen i have to make sure its a happy day with her..but its just few hrs..at the point of time when she scolded me..i really felt that there's a knife in my heart..i dont know what to say..then end up quarrelling with her again..i really hate the feeling when i couldn't put down my temper..it always take me a few hrs before i could actually think and feel that im in the wrong..but i know she still care for me..but her words are always so harsh that i really feel like giving up..my tears just dropped down while standing at the counter..i hate it when she always wanted a break up..cos i can never say "break jiu break lah" ..thats the sentence i guess i could never say..because i know my love for you is true, these 2 years together we suffered so much hardship and obstacles, finally we could walk till here..its because of our love..from young, i got this stupid habit of keep talking non stop..and im still trying to kick off this stupid habit..it caused me so much trouble already..i wish i can be muted and couldnt talk at all..hais..
when i saw the cuts on the arm..it really breaks my heart..i felt so useless..i cant even protect her, and even made her cut her own arm..i dont know what to say..so i just say he bendan..why go cut her own arm..but i really do care for her..i just hope al these could be over soon and we can go back to our happy life like last time..even the period when we're tagging hearts..time together is short, but its always so sweet..it may be tiring, but its worth it..
I love you darlnig, my love for you is always true..you can dont believe me in other things but you must believe me in this..