Woke up with my panda eyes..didnt sleep well..so i bought coffee from toast box on the way to work..while working, i kept seeing couples..married young couples..pregnant lady with husband helping her to carry stuffs..young couples pushing baby chairs..hais..i just felt so sad that my tears gonna drop..i tried to msg her..but i know it'll take some time before everything go back to normal again..i wont force her..because i know she's been hurt alot already..she's afraid of me now..afraid that i might cheat on her and throw her alone..but i would never do that..i'll not let her go..i'll not let go my hands..she's been the most important person in my life for over 2 years, she gave me love, gave me happiness, sorrowness, and my happiest time in my life is being with her..she made me know what love is all about..the first time i can feel the heartache when she's about to leave me..
I promised her not to make her upset or disappointed again..i'll only do my own things and care for her..other things wont bother me anymore..i'll write an agreement for her tmr..in black ink and white paper..she gave me this chance..and i will take good hold of it..i'll not let go of this chance..i need to win her trust back..
She went shopping after work..and bought me 2 shirts and a pair of pants..im so touched..she'll always have me in her heart..and i can feel that..though the size abit big x.x i promise to eat fat fat ! She waited for me to finish work and we went for supper at opposite market as usual..this short period with her was so sweet..although what we do is just having a plate of hokkien mee together..i need her in my future..i need her to walk with me down the road..without her, im like a lost child in a shopping centre, dont even know the way home..i really love her..