Hais..everything actually went on very smoothly today..until the time when we decide to sleep for awhile...
alright today i woke up at 8.20 to buy chnl..after bought lurh jiu prepare and went out lurh..buy breakfast for darling and myself to eat..egg tart and soya bean drink..today actually we wanted to drain all the CBP npc dry de..budden we drain until very tired..and very sick of it also..so after awhile we decided to go and sleep for awhile..
hais just before we're going to sleep..i tried to play with darling..idk why end up she kept pushing me away..hais..i just want to know why..we've been happy all along today..i cant think of any reason for her to be so angry to keep pushing me away..as usual again..hais i couldnt bear with it..my patience became anger..hais..im angry and sad..very..i just need her to be more patient with me..to tell me reasons for getting angry each time..hais..idk anymore..
she then went inside room to sleep..bringing her stuffs..and close the door..after she woke up she just stayed inside to watch tv..hais..so i just let her cool down first before i go in..around 8+ i decided to go in bah..at first she didnt push me away..im feeling so touched..and so comfortable..hoping that all the quarrels will be over soon..but soon after..she started pulling my hand away..hais..and i know..im gonna have a hard time..she started crying..and tried to comfort her..budden..hais..
then i bought channel le..and see its time for couple competition..i wanted her to play with me..but i failed..i couldnt..and soon after..she took off the ring from her hand..at that moment..im stunned there..my mind went blank..my heart feel so pain..remembering the day when i put on that ring for her once again..im feeling so happy at that time..but its only a few days later for this to happen..hais..then she ignored me..keep moving away from me..i really dont know what to do..i feel so lost..i really cant lose her..i cant..all my life is her..
she went to play her games..not letting me in the room..hais..then after that i went home..and login to play CBP with her..i tried all ways..i couldnt do it..i cant even make her reply me nicely..hais..she wants to broke up with me..i dont want..i really dont want..i always try to keep this relationship going on..i really treasure it..i dont wanna lose you..i cant do without you..i really dont know..ever since dunno when..all my life is you..i woke up, first time is to msg you and look for you..and being with you for 14 hrs per day is not enough for me..i miss you every moment..even when my parents tell me why i need to go to your house everyday..i tell them cos i want to go..its what i want..im walking on the path that i want..now im like kid alone out there..not knowing where to go..
Hais..i just hope..everything will be fine soon..this relationship is really important to me..i dont know what i will become without it..